This is the honest truth...

Is it my fault that i have so much commitment? As a friend, as a mentor and even as player. Seriously, is it my fault that i have so many friends and events and activities to attend to? If it is not my fault, why are you acting like it's my fault and telling my saractiscially, "Ahhh just go lar! It's ok!! Goo... Just go!!" Seriously why? I have my friends to attend to and activities that i am involve so can i just do it as it is my life? I don't know what is going through your mind as you tell me that. Are you telling for my good or are you just pissed with what i am doing. I offered you the opporunites to do and experience what i am doing so that you may know why i am so into such things but did you take up that offer? No. So can you please just let me do it because i love to. That doesn't mean that i am abondoning what i used to do, it is just doing it lesser.

And even so, if is not by my nature to do such things, why are you still forcing me to do it? People always say to live life as your own and do what you love but do you see what are you doing to me? If you are unhappy with what i am doing then just tell me. I will try my best to explain and just hope you understand because the other parties are my friends too. You are too that's why i don't want to lose you.

If you are think and reflect and see that you are such a person in my life then please please change. I don't mind helping you. This is why i post this. All in the hope of light that you might see this and maybe there is still something more. I am trying my best and doing reflections therefore i may come out with such a post and confront it in public but i still you to be there to reflect too.

A court will never place judgement without the hearing of both parties.

But back to school. Day 1 is hell boring. Seriously, i expect more and more fun. And weirdly, i don't feel like year 2. It still feels like year 1. This is bad... Then at the end of everything and all lessons, there's still the green band. It seems good until we saw SMA people doing their practice. It was damn loud and clear. Shit... At this rate, we might lose... NO!

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