Ok, FREAKING pissed with FYP now.

Took such a long time to do up the subtitles for that video but it doesn't even open. Even the movie editor doesn't open its own file. Pissed.

Tags: Pissed off Jasmine Leong

"So take me to a place where i can see you face to face. And all i want to do, all i want to do is to worship you."

Let's end 2011 by remembering what He has done for us and start 2012 remembering its a year for challenges He set for us.

Tags: Listen

The last church camp i could remembered was held in 2005. The others that i went as a part-time camper was just a blur.

So this year came and i knew i could not miss out the chance. So many things around me told me that this year was the perfect one. Perfect timing, perfect planning from God and last of all, my cell members were going.

Did i cry as much as 2005? Nope. It was different. This year's feeling wasn't about pain and all my worries and all my sorry. This year's camp was about the next generation. My cell kids are the next generation.

I knew i had to pray for them. The perfect timing came. The speakers introduced the idea that group leaders and advisers should wash the feets of their members. I knew in my heart that God wanted me to wash the feet of my cell kids.

It was amazing. It was speechless. With that action, it was about devotion to the cell. It was a calling to see them grow in Christ until the cell grows old and moves on to the next phase in life.

Ya, i prayed for them. Thank God for who they are. For their strength, for their weakness, for their amazing love for the Most Holy. It was amazing.

Did we stop there? No. We held on in prayer for all who could not make it and even for the lost sheep out there.

Honestly, Thank God for His amazing and perfect plan. His perfect wisdom suggest to how deep His infinite love for us. No one can grasp it. No one can understand it. It's because they can't that's why they fall out.

His perfect plan for placed me in this cell. To see how this broken cell has grown so much. This year was amazing. They have grown so much in Christ. I could not have done it on my own but it was by God's grace and strength that i did and ALL glory goes to Him.

I like to say that this cell is the comeback cell. Once so weak and broken but now so strong and tight together. So proud of every single one of them.

Tags: His plans for us are what perfect wisdom suggest to infinite love.

And you'll never change. No wonder i didn't miss you when you're away. Seriously, it was all fake. Thanks for coming back and reminding me why i don't miss you.

No its not you. But you! Ya you, if you even read my blog. Please, either change or one of us will have to move out.

Pissed.

I know you'll be trying to tell me to look at the positive side of this situation but for 19 years it has been this way. Please. I also see why i don't heed people's advices. Its subjective and plain unique.



Tags: God, show me the light

How ironic can life ever get?

We as humans, somehow or somewhat have been altered by an unseen force to be stupid and smart at times.

We humans always believe that there is this certain path that one must take. For example, Kindergarten to primary school to secondary school to Poly/JC to university to PhD/job to higher paying job to having kids to seeing them grow up to growing old and finally to die. This life is also known as "circular life". Any dropout at the early stages of the circular life is seen as taboo, stupid, rebellion and eventually a reject in the society. Only an electron of those who dropped out are successful which also is an electron full.

In other words, we humans need to follow a certain set of procedure if not fear being a reject.

What can't be seen in life is seen in belief.

We as humans also need to believe that there is a higher power. I say again, a NEED. We can say we don't believe in any God but by saying that, it is already believing that there is already a God, just not a belief. It's like an inevitable need to believe in a higher power no matter how badly one doesn't. Also, one does not automatically becomes an atheist just because he can't explain agnosticism. That's just stupid and shows that the person doesn't know what he/she is talking about.

So, have we seen with our eyes a higher power? No one has ever seen it honestly. Those idol are made by hands and not by... well, nothing. That also means nothing made a God. That's worst. Yet we still believe in it. Weird... And please, Buddha is not a God. He calmed enlightened which made his wisdom/intelligent greater than Gods when he at first does not believe in any God. Its like a belief in a God which does not believed in Gods. Weird...

I need to stop going off topic. This is getting nowhere. I just have a dying questions to ask all Christians.

Do Muslims and Christians believe in the same one God? YES or NO. (Explanation is seriously not needed. Yes or No is good/bad enough)

Tags: I'm reading my thoughts

My funeral song. Yes, part of the lyrics is in my previous.



Tags: Not-thing

About desired and reality...

In our lives we hunger
For things we cannot touch
All the thoughts unuttered
All the feelings unexpressed
Play upon our hearts like the mist upon our breath
But awoken by grief, our spirits speak
"How could you believe
That the life within the seed
That grew arms that reached
And a heart that beat
And lips that smiled
And eyes that cried
Could ever die?"

Love Is Stronger Than Death - Angela Mccluskey